Whilst walking along what is probably known as the busiest street in the United Kingdom, I began to understand the true concept of shopping addiction. Along the famous Oxford Street, I witnessed young men and women rushing from store to store, purchasing numerous unneeded items.
Whilst purchasing my first item of the day in a small boutique, I came across a tall, middle-aged woman. She was determined to find the right pair of shoes for her daughter’s birthday and would clearly not settle for anything less than ordinary. She was a rude woman, stubborn and loud, treating the staff like rubbish on the side of a road. I knew from her 14 shopping bags, to be exact, that she was a careless woman with her money. Much like this woman, I too was often spending money without a consequence, not a pound in my pocket could not be spent. But this woman turned shopping into an art, she made it look so simple, yet so frustrating. On her last attempt to convince the staff to order a specific pair of shoes, her cheeks started to turn red, her eyes bulging and her temper growing.
She was addicted… ill. She had no reason to need these shoes, but it was almost as if her mind was telling her that she did. Soon in frustration, she stormed out of the store, across the street and into another small boutique. I can only imagine the suffering she would have endeared on the poor staff, and I do question as to whether she finally found her much needed shoes or not. I never understood the meaning of an addiction, but much like any other, shopping can become an illness, taking over your life. The need to live like a Kardashian, without the money to do so.
It is a very common fact that those suffering with depression often forget about the rules of money. I know that I personally spent almost all of my savings whilst having my breakdown as a way to distract myself from everyday struggles. I was lucky enough to seek professional help that would not only allow me to express my emotions in a one to one session, but offer financial support also. If you find yourself starting to stray away from responsibilities and shopping more than usual, I urge you too seek support urgently. One thing I learnt in this experience was that spending all this money caused nothing but more stress and grief. It was a nice feeling to wear those new pare of shoes for a little while, but it soon wore off when I suddenly could no longer pay for my bills.
Stay strong ❤